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Self BlameLong after I said I was fine
The problem lingered in my mind
I wanted to be able to say
That I was okay
But I'm not
And long after acceptance is sought
There will still be a problem to be found
Because I can't be safe and sound
They may never understand
But the idea of acceptance is grand
And perhaps that would help
But the truth is...
I still need to forgive myself
NighttimeSticks and stones
Have never broken my bones
Words pierced my heart
And it's slowly falling apart
But I can't run and hide
Because the problem is also inside
I try to push it away
But there it stays
And when I turn off the light
I begin my fight
Battling the tears
Trying to rid myself of these fears
My sorrow will go away
Until the end of the next day
Tonight is always the worst
But by tomorrow morning I'll no longer be cursed
Below lies an ocean of tears
As though her eyes have been crying for years
Her eyes reside in their cloud domain
Their tears falling down as rain
Her expression is illuminated by an open book
But to see the reasons behind it within the cloud you must look
A staircase comes up from the sea
Leading to a locked door; behind which are the thoughts you seek
To get to the stairs you must scramble
But not over bushes or brambles
First you must climb
Over a female sign
Next over a broken heart
Shot by an arrow and coming apart
The water around it is red
From the arrow wound that has bled
Last you must climb over a pencil that is broken
The words it wanted to write never to be spoken
The door to her thoughts is closed
Her secrets will not easily be exposed
Near the door within the cloud lies the key
But it is too far for you to reach
Because only she can give you the key
And without it her thoughts you won't truly be able to see
Ridiculed LoveA girl and a boy can love each other
But it's much harder for me to confess my love to another
I love another girl
But that's unacceptable in this world
If I asked her out
The others would scream and shout
They would call me gay
And not listen to what I have to say
I can't help how I feel
My love for her is real
Much to their frustration
I can't change my sexual orientation
Come OutI feel empty inside
When my secrets I hide
I didn’t tell anyone at school
For fear of being ridiculed
I don’t want to lose my friends
But my sexual orientation I shouldn’t have to defend
I no longer wish to hide
But I will not apologize
I can’t change who I am inside
But as of now, I will admit to my gay pride!
The Comfort of Stuffed AnimalsI need someone to hold at night
Someone to help me forget my strife
They can hold me in their arms
And protect me from harm
They can comfort me when I weep
And wipe the tears from my cheeks
I've spent too many nights alone
Awake in the darkness of my home
I needed someone to hold me
But I didn't let anyone see
Being alone I couldn't take
So I settled for a fake
He's stuffed, as anyone could see
But he's almost what I needed, even if he is a bunny
NightQuietly I weep
Crying myself to sleep
I feel my heart ache
Cracked and ready to break
I hold my pillow tight
It is the only thing to help me through the night
I need someone to comfort me
Someone needs to set me free
Anti-DepressantsI wonder if I should be on meds
Because sometimes I wish I were dead
Maybe I need medication
I can't seem to shake this desperation
I want a pill that will make it go away
A pill I can take every day
A pill to dull my pain
And keep me from going insane
Maybe I'm depressed and maybe I'm not
So far a doctor's opinion I have not sought
I don't feel like I can do this alone much longer
I imagine medication could make me stronger
So while I have never been officially diagnosed
I know I need an antidote
Unrequited LoveRight next to me you stand
I daydream of holding your hand
Having our fingers intertwined
Your hand would feel so good in mine
I want to hold you close to me
I want to set my secret free
You asked me who I liked
Not knowing you were causing strife
I told you it was a secret
You assumed I didn't trust you to keep it
The truth is I like YOU
But you will never notice the clues
Of my love you will never guess
Because of hiding it I do my best
On me you can always depend
Even if I'll never be more than a friend
I want you to look into my eyes
And see past my disguise
I need you to see
That I want you to be with me
I don't know what I should do
Because I'll never be able to express how I feel about you
I can tHow can I begin this life anew?
Even though I know you would want me too.
I just don´t know the place I should start,
how do I repair my broken heart?
Searching for direction
which way do I go?
A year almost over but
I have nothing to show.
I´m just treading water,
I´m getting nowhere.
still on the spot
where you left me last year.
I will love you forever,
it´s only you that I want
I should move on I know
but I just can´t.
By Suzanne karbach Sept 2014
the fall of the last monarchy (reworked)butterfly promise
weighs the feather wind, no less
than the plight he is.
Little Darlin'Little darlin' with the precious heart,
rest here a little while longer with me
let me run my fingers in your long hair
I'm so glad that together we are free
you gave me a connection to share.
I had once thought you would leave
forever gone and I would be unforgiven
you said that I simply didn't believe
but you had never stopped being driven.
Feeling your skin now as it is bare
I can see the scars I have left on you
yet they're worn with pride and without scare
you loved me more than I ever knew.
Lay here with me, let me soak you in
into your warm, sweet scent I burrow
run your fingertips along my chin
wipe away my brow's furrow.
Yes, just as you've always done for me
through agonizing heartbreak and pain
even after you left me at that tree
after that, we both stood in sorrow rain.
I had been so foolish, so selfish before
I feared you would never take me again
but I ran hopeful and scared to your door
and it was a lack of love you couldn't feign.
A smile and kiss bound us together
A Garden Full of Butterflies.When youth was sun and cloudless skies
and a garden full of butterflies,
and daisies waiting to be chains
in meadows where it never rained.
When lambs jumped joyous every spring
and I heard every bluebird sing
and all the adults told the truth
in the dream that was my youth.
When Santa granted every wish.
When my pond was filled with golden fish
and a cow leapt high to reach the moon
and Grampa sung a funny tune.
When paper dolls danced in a line
and sugared bread to eat was fine,
and adults never gave me rules
least not before I went to school!
When time was just an honoured guest
he flitted in – but took a rest.
Moving not, he watched me grow
in Happy-Ever-After glow.
All of this, it was my Truth
in lengthened days, where dwelt my youth –
when youth was sun and cloudless skies
and a garden full of butterflies...
Your smileOn seeking solace in your smile,
it soothed my troubled heart,
soon hoped that you would stay around
and this would be the start
of something good that happens when
a happy face beguiles,
a love so true
just me and you
all started with your smile.
Now I sit and just remember and
ponder for a while,
on laughing eyes so blue,
on our love so true
and how you made me smile.
by Suzanne Karbach Sept 2014
ParadiseHis heart matched the beat of a magic song,
his chest was my pillow, and nothing was wrong.
The dark green of his eyes hypnotized me,
I felt it all the way to my soul, finally free.
His skin was smooth, my fingertips felt at home,
stroking his cheek, his arm, letting my hands roam.
Paradise isn't a dream, or a place faraway,
it's being wrapped in his arms, knowing I'm okay.
I am Who I Am and by Me Only MeI am Who I am
A poem by AFlyingPassion
I’m a… freak
a person who has no life,
a person who steal someone’s watchers,
a piece of trash,
a discerning person,
a c*nt, a
a mental person.
A disgusting person
A person who needs to get a life
A person who can’t drive
A person who has problems
Some people wish that I would die,
end up being FOREVER alone.
No matter what people end up calling me hoping to put me down, this is me and ME only.
Have a creative mind
A giggly person
A one of a kind
A lover of animals and family
Genuinely loved by different people
Notice me...I remember..
Those cold nights of isolation..
Those nights worrying about being hit or not....
Waking up in a nightmare..
Trusting no man.
I am stronger,
and I am older.
I am no longer under your roof,
I am no longer under your control.
I have no more bruises from your fists,
from your belt,
from your shoes.
I AM stronger.
I am living..
waking up in cold sweats..
worrying that you are near me..
scared that I would wake up with you near me...
terrified of being hit again..
and hoping to be noticed by you..
I am not that into football.
I tend to write about my feelings,
than say them.
I am not your spawn.
EscapeShe reads her book to blot out the world
She wants her life to end, though she's still a little girl
Her book lets her escape
Taking her to another place
A place filled with magic
Where nothing is tragic
While she reads she can forget about her troubles
Instead worrying about the characters' struggles
She can ignore the problems in her own life
And temporarily forget her strife
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